Early in the morning 7oclock . Tian Shen suddenly woke up and went for the blog :D. went to the cinemas yesterday to watch percey jackson and the lightning thief? was quite a nice movie . went because dear wanted to watch it badly . had a great time watching it with her . kelvin tagged along too as he and karhwei came to visit me and to "bai nian". watched ghost shows using the com before going out and we were scared the hell out of us . cabbed down to nick's house after the show and slacked there , more people came along and we decided to go home as nick and co. are going down to eat . cabbed and sent kelvin home 1st before sending dear home and cabbed home myself after that . bathed when reach home and watched tv for awhile with father and went to sleep soon . this is the 1st time i slept so early since the operation . slept at 10 OMFG . was awake at around 5 but was tired so lied around the bed till 6 when i was finally fully awake . Kite flying with dear the next time round . :D
♥ 3:22 PM
Cheer up my dear :D . If u have to ,eat it.
♥ 1:56 AM
Hie all . very happy today cos manling has agreed to marry to me 8 years later. Woots <3 . went to hospital in the morning for th usual checks and bought my belated valentine day present for my dear XD . she was super happy when she too it and she smiled all the way from school to home till she went back . Shalln't write anymore, later my dear at there sing song. (OI, I DON'T PLEASE.) <-- Manling write de.
♥ 3:05 AM
Hey peeps u guys noe i have mood swings so ya ignore the previous post . and to my dear , don think too much . u are my one and only love although u always annoy the hell out of me and plucked my hair when there is going to be none left <3 ILOVEYOU
♥ 8:14 AM
My eyes are simply swollen rite now . i did not noe wad to do. I always thought u understand me best but i was wrong .I have had enough . i don't want to continue this anymore . i don't want to put up a brave front anymore. its tiring, it really is.... I want to let u all noe that all these while i am not as strong as i seemed . i am a human being too and i have emotions too. I just accept this shit thing on my leg and carry on with my life normally like nothing happened.Everytime i see people being able to go to school i am evnious of them though i hated school last time alot and everytime my brother goes out how i wished i do not have to stay at home. Everytime my brother told me about wad happened today how i wished i was at the scene too.... It have been ages since i last took a nice foto of myself and it has been ages since i am able to walk in public proudly.everone's has been looking at me when i am outside, they thinks i looked like a freak.. I have lost all self confidence since then I dont even freakin dare to board the bus alone i feel so odd. I though that with u by my side everything would be okay . u coming to my house every now and then did encouraged me alot . it really did . and i still believed it right now at this moment.... I believe u are in a very bad mood right now and would nt be seeing this message. forget it, afterall this god dam freaking tumour is grown onto me & i shall be the fucking person to handle all these. This sentence is wrote to all .
u don't noe me well enough
Labels: Its all too much
♥ 1:27 AM
Visited the hospital today and went for appointment with the surgeon. opened up the bandages and the wound is left open to let it have some air .LOL . the hole in my leg is still raw and doesnt look like i am able to start chemotheraphy on monday . but like that oso good la . at least can happily finish my chinese new year 1st . ANG POW HERE I COME .HAHA. went home after the appointment and i basically spent the whole morning there . cabbed home after that and my leg is in great pain now T_T. feeling kind of low rite now for some reasons and who ai pei me maple? (i noe i am lame or kind of bo liao to play maple but u wont noe how bored i am till u get this kind of disease too.)
♥ 11:15 PM
