1st day of hospitalisation ... have so much to say. 1st of all , i am very shagged and scared at 1st cos , 1 side is cos of my relationship the other side is that i dread to stay in the hospital . i don like seriously , and i feel so paiseh . i cried in front of the public cos i very sad as manling wanted a break up in the morning and i have this chemotheraophy to deal with and i seriously dono wad to do , my doctor came to console me and frens too and i decided i have to move on with life . so i took up the courage and went for chemotheraphy , after that had a chat with manling and we decided to start afresh , no more quarrelling and breaking up anymore ok>>? and i am at the hospital now and i swear it is dam xin ku and sian . i everyday have to do chemo for the next 5 days and each day i have to do for 8 hours , i dono how am i going to survive it .... but what is inmportant is i have manling by my side now and i promised her i will not cry easily anymore so i will be brave and take up any upcoming obstacles . buying new lappy next week as this laptop is very laggy and cant play any game and i decided to buy 1 new 1 so that i am still at least able to play game when i am in hospital too :D . i noe i am a spoilt brat but i am sick so who cares ？haha . last of all . ILOVEYOU TEO MANLING 060509 , 10 months together already , don let this relationship pass by just like this . i will hang on to it like my life depends on it . MUACKXZ

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